So, after working my final day with Sound City the women I was working for told me that they thought I was so driven, enthusiastic and good at the job I was doing that they’ve invited me into their team for some festivals over summer. This to me is the reassurance that I’m doing something right which I’m good at that I’ve needed for a while now. One of my aims way back in December was to become more motivated. Again I spent much of the day sorting dressing rooms and riders and delegating roles to the other volunteers to make sure work got done as quickly and efficiently as possible. This didn’t go unrecognised as one of the other volunteers even said ‘I’m so glad someone has taken charge; we would not get anywhere without you’ (HOW GREAT IS THAT!!). What I’ve learnt in regards to his aim is that under the right circumstances I am an extremely motivated person. Even though my artist liaison role at Sound City more or less that of a glorified cleaner, I was still exceptionally motivated to get my job done fast and well throughout my entire shift. Last night I even stayed back an hour and a half after my shift finished to ensure that all the work was done.

So this means that I’ll hopefully be going to Kendal Calling and Blue Dot festival over summer to work with Meredith and Molly again. I t was reassuring that I had maybe 6 people come up to me just to say that I was doing a really good job and that I was really on it. This felt so GOOD. I really think festivals is where I belong and I truly believe that they’re where I flourish. Even completing mundane tasks doesn’t feel monotonous or draining. Hearing someone say ‘you’ve got that thing, that drive, that understanding to be incredibly successful’ is something that I’ve been hoping to be recognised for years now. Everything about the industry is about who you know, about getting that ‘in’, that link, and this was mine I think. I think that meeting these people working for this company at this time in my life was very important and will hopefully lead onto bigger and better things. So could this be the beginning of a dream come true? Who knows, but it’s certainly the beginning of something, which at the very least is a change in how I feel in myself about my own abilities.

Meredith, who I was working for said something very interesting which I couldn’t relate to more than I do. She said, “To be in this industry can’t be because you think it’ll cool and glamourous, it has to be because you can’t stay away from it, you can’t not be in this business.” This was the first time I realised that this is completely where I stand. There is literally nothing else in this world that I could do, let alone that I’d rather do.